June 13, 2016- The day we met, FINALLY

“All along I believed I would find you. Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for thousand years. I’ll love you for a thousand more.”

Today marks the day that we finally got to meet Gloria!! It’s hard to put into words the feelings of that day. It was 12 years of wanting and waiting, and heartache and loss, and excitement and joy.. and all the emotions that go along with all of that. My head was spinning. Is this actually happening? We finally get to meet our child?! We had a plan to meet with the social worker in the morning, at the hospital, at 10. We wanted to be there a little bit early AND in classic Liz and Sean fashion.. we didn’t park in the right parking lot, we got ourselves lost, and then we couldn’t find the front door. LOL. (this is quite fitting with the way we live our lives. Haha) We took the long way but managed to be on time, to meet our social worker. Here’s how hat went- we are sitting in the lobby of the hospital, which is, in the same space as the cafe. So many people in and out and walking around. We had no idea what our social worker looked like and she didn’t know what we looked like. So, we sat there just hoping that we looked lost enough and /or excited enough that she would assume it was us. Lol. It was about 10 or 15 minutes of sitting nervously and then standing nervously and then sitting again and looking around. Trying to make awkward eye contact with random people just hoping that one of them would be our social worker. (We are sooo not good at that) Finally, she came up to us. Funny enough, she wasn’t anyone that I’d made any eye contact with. So, she sits with us and gives us a packet of stuff from A. It included things about her that she wants Gloria to know and a sonogram! It was so awesome. You have to remember that we didn’t know anything about A. We had a scheduled meeting with her on June 14 but Gloria decided to come earlier that that. (We kept that appointment with her- that’s a story for tomorrow πŸ˜‰) So, it was really cool to learn a little about A. By the time we were able to head up to meet Gloria, the doctor was making his rounds and we had to wait. It’s a whole bunch of ‘hurry up and wait’. I’m not a good waiter. Patience is not a strong suit for me. I get so antsy. Finally, we found a ourselves walking to the NICU! (WOOHOO!!!) For those who don’t know, it is highly secure at hospitals where babies are and there are extra form(s) of security and precautions when it comes to getting into NICU’s. We knocked on the door to let us in. I was feeling so many emotions. I was so happy and excited and nervous and scared. And pretty much every other emotion in between. (Throwing up was not out of the realm of possibilities.) We had waited so long to have a child and here we were.. About to lay our eyes on our daughter, for the very first time! Oh, but then— one of the nurses, Sarah (who is awesome by the way) came out and said, “sorry, you can’t come in”. (Lol. Ugh) Sounded about right. Here we were- FINALLY- about to meet our daughter.. we were so close that I was able to see the corner of her isolette but not her. (I actually didn’t know that it was hers but I remember that one being the only one you could see from outside the door) It ended up that there was something private happening in the NICU and we had to go wait in the waiting room. She was super nice about it and answered all my questions about Gloria’s health before we went to the waiting room. After about an hour and a half we got a phone call saying that we could go in. Finally!! YAY!!! We knocked and they actually let us in! We scrubbed our hands and arms for 3 minutes and slowly walked into the room where Gloria was.. she took my breath away. I couldn’t say anything. All I could do was cry and smile. And shake a little bit. I was in awe of her. There she was.. my amazing daughter. My champ. Such a strong little fighter- all 2 lbs 12 oz of her. We couldn’t hold her because she was intubated. (Understandable but really, it’s all I wanted to do at that moment) We could put our hands through the holes in her isolette and touch her and that– was just an amazing feeling. The pictures tell a good story. ❀😊

I started texting family and close friends daily updates and my mom typed them up and gave them to me. I’m going to share those in my posts.6/13/16 8:34amWe didn’t sleep much last night. We’re so excited. A little nervous. And we just can’t wait. πŸ™‚ It’s crazy to think that our daughter is in there. As of right now we are waiting to hear from the local agent down here to find out when we head to the hospital and all the things we need to do before we can finally meet Glory. I think they said 9:30/10. I think there’s going to be a lot of paperwork and talking/learning about what the next few weeks/months are going to look like. We’ll keep everyone posted. :)10:24amWaiting in the lobby. We’re so excited. Cried a little πŸ™‚ they gave us a sonogram! And a packet that A (birth mother) filled out about her and things that she wants Glory to know. 2:05pmHey all- an update on our day and how awesome Glory is!!! πŸ™‚ We went to meet our social worker at the hospital.. and got lost. Lol. There’s a pic of that. We met so,e really great people at the hospital and there a program that they’re trying to get us in call the the Senate House. It’s basically an apartment that we can stay in for free. That’ll. E great if it works out. We finally went up to meet Glory and we were right outside the door and they closed the floor and we had to go sit in the waiting room for about an hour and a half. Finally, we went in to meet our amazing daughter at 12:35 πŸ™‚ She had to be intubated yesterday to help with her breathing but it looks like she’ll be able to get her tube out today or tomorrow and go back to her C-PAP. She also has a feeding tube. She is strong and doing well. I’ll send some pics πŸ™‚ Also- it turns out that she was 10 weeks early not 9. Oh- and her bilirubin is high so she has her tanning lights on πŸ™‚ >